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LIVING TRUE + DARING TO SUCK FREE WEBINAR (Replay & OFFERS below)

LIVING TRUE + DARING TO SUCK FREE WEBINAR (Replay & OFFERS below)

If you were unable to join us LIVE today, here is the replay with *HOT OFFERS BELOW* When was the last time you did something for the first time? Mine was today, when I went LIVE on Blab (a live broadcasting platform you MUST check out!) with Megan Hale from “The Enoughness Revolution” to start a very much needed conversation in the world around what it means to allow ourselves our own feelings. And it was pretty amazing. To say we were blown away by our experience today would be an understatement.  Thank you so much for sharing that space with us and adding your voices, your stories, and your experiences to the conversation.  We look forward to hosting more of these conversations in the future!  And if you missed it, the recording is above. We both mentioned special offers to help you gain some momentum in your life around allowing yourself to be more fully expressed in the world – and here they are: I’m offering a private *Deep Dive Session* plus 1 week of support for just $97.00  (10 spots available only – regular price is $197.00)This call is designed for you to EXPLORE your inner world with curiosity (not judgement), EXPRESS yourself fully (and safely) and EXPAND your Brilliance into your life and the world.Imagine that inner critic (or insert any undesirable feeling here) you so quickly want to push aside and avoid turned out to be your greatest gift and closest ally?What if these unexplored and unpolished gems turned out to be the most beautiful, misunderstood, neglected and innocent parts of YOU that are patiently waiting for your loving time and attention? I’m here to help you learn HOW to be with them to finally receive their gifts of wisdom and insight to help you moving forward.  So, if you are ready to create a new, more loving and compassionate connection with yourself and your unexpressed emotions, let’s jump in.This offering is perfect if you are swirling around with inner clutter, emotional conflict, confusion or even a sense of disconnection in your life that is keeping you stuck. How do we do this?You bring a willingness and desire to explore your conflict.   I bring my skills, experience and fierce love to create sacred space for you to clear, unite and heal your conflicting parts – for you to find peace from the broken pieces.What you get* A pre-call questionnaire to prep you for our call to raise your awareness and make the most of our time together.* 1 x 60 minute DEEP DIVE session* One week of accountability, feedback and supportive resources as you take the awareness from our call into your life to apply and practice.Limited time offer* of $97.00 USD for the first 10 sessions taken (regularly priced at $197.00 USD). If you have any questions or would like to learn more, email me at info@keriannelivingstone.com and I will respond within 24 hours. To claim one of these hot little numbers available to 10 people, click below:   Megan’s offering a 25% discount on the Claim Your Enoughness November Group Program that’s getting started on November 2nd bringing the price to $147.  This will be the lowest price ever offered before it goes up next round to $397. This program is for women who are ready to rewrite the stories that are keeping them from being enough.  It’s the soul work of getting in touch with the piece of yourself who always feels like she doesn’t measure...

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What To Do When Daring to Suck… really F*cking SUCKS.

What To Do When Daring to Suck… really F*cking SUCKS.

First, let me explain my absence in writing and say #sorryNOTsorry for the length of this post (but much like this process)… it’s a doozy and totally worth it! In June, I returned from my own Daring to Suck adventure from an exclusive (aka highly priced) make-me-or-break-me writing retreat I attended … and since then, I’ve been in hiding. Or should I say… in healing. Me not sharing publicly about what happened caused a level of inner conflict and paralysis I haven’t felt since I first got pushed off the ledge of my “practical” life 7 years ago. I told myself I conveniently needed time to “process” it all but days turned into weeks and now MONTHS. I’m finally calling bullshit and speaking my truth. Why has it taken me so long? I guess like many of us, I believed my “truth” would hurt or harm people I truly care about. It wasn’t their intention for me to experience what I did so I thought it was good enough to express privately with my inner circle. But how am I serving the world if I leave the SUCK out from Daring to Suck? My mojo is rooted in shining light through the dark and not running away from it – so here is what happened. I went into the retreat wanting to be ALL IN and in true Daring To Suck style, I put my heart, soul and money on the table in the hopes it (“I”) would be received, seen, and celebrated towards my goal.  A part of me wanted to be lifted up like Simba from the Lion King for all to behold! And I don’t hold this against me or think it’s wrong to want to be embraced. I think we all deserve to experience this level of acknowledgement for the incredible and unique beings we are. Let’s just say, the first part totally happened. I was bold, emotional, passionate and enthusiastic about my hearts cause. I spoke about starting a Daring to Suck Revolution of Empathetic Badasses – encouraging open hearts to move forward with a greater understanding of their emotions, empowered with the wisdom our hearts bring to lead the change the world needs. How to live openly and daringly, without armour. To trust the strength and leadership in vulnerable authenticity. To be bold and BE who they are, DO what they were born to do and FEEL their way through life with the intellect playing a much needed support role. I shared the most intimate and emotional writing I’ve ever written and laid it all out on the line. It came out BIG and EMOTIONAL. As it should have (I’m channeling some serious shit) and it felt so good to share it without holding back anymore. Ooohhh I went for it. Bigtime. So… was I held up and Simba’d? No. At least it didn’t feel (or look) like it. What immediately followed my emotional unload was a logical discussion to make sense of what I shared. With tears still wet on my cheeks, my heart became a project to be figured out and left feeling like the awkward “fart” in the room that nobody wanted to address. And in this, I was left isolated, confused, disconnected, alone, rejected and worst of all… feeling misunderstood. I was asked to come back to the table with more stories, something different, more sellable or marketable. I was asked to “dance” and deliver. Sweet jesus, just remembering this makes me prickly…   Because it SUCKED. Like really really...

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The Gifts of Giving and Receiving (Day 24 & 25) #25DaysOfPresence

The Gifts of Giving and Receiving (Day 24 & 25) #25DaysOfPresence

My hope for #25DaysOfPresence was to attempt being more present and share the gifts of presence as I went. I saw what I needed to see and felt what needed to be feel. I’ve done and undone. I’ve course-corrected when I slowed down during the busiest time of the year in a completely different way. And I thank you for coming along for the ride. Today, I received a gift this morning via an email from a friend who shared a story of seeing the portrait child prodigy Akaine painted of Jesus (featured in the book and movie Heaven is For Real). I saw the movie and remembered it clearly. It reminded me of the original and true story of Christmas about people coming together to celebrate and give whatever they had – out of the spirit of giving. And their gifts were fully received and rejoiced. They were truly grateful. In thinking about the simplicity of this, something opened up in me and a rush of emotion had me sobbing amongst my wrapping paper and ribbons. Not tears of sadness or melancholy. Of love. The love that happens when we slow down and receive the gifts all around us – not just in the packages we open. Thus, I was inspired to write… First, on Gifts. This year I’ve received many gifts and now see how they can take many forms, so pay attention. The more present and aware you are, the more you find. First, there are the obvious gifts you open and appreciate. There are also gifts in written and spoken words that touch your heart or wake you up, get your attention and point you in a new direction that feels right. There are gifts of experiences and gestures that tell you someone sees you and that you matter. Gifts can even show up in fights, disagreements and ‘life-is-happening-to-me’ moments that can be opportunities to clear the air and begin again, stronger and clearer. On Giving. There are so many gifts we are waiting to receive from others outside ourselves.  Something to help us feel seen, to feel better or change our situation. In the past, when I waited to receive this from others, my life stood still, stuck unconsciously asking, Do you even see me over here? Do you know what it’s like for me? Do you even care? Beuller? We never think to give the gift of being seen and acknowledgement to ourselves, FROM ourselves. This is one of the greatest ways we can receive. I never realized that I was the very person I needed to be seen and loved by. Turns out this is the best gift I’ve ever received is my own loving attention. To celebrate, document and acknowledge the things I’ve achieved, moments I’ve learned and ways I’ve changed for the better. As the year comes to a close, I’m asking you to take a moment and find as many things as you can to celebrate, acknowledge and give yourself credit for. Whether you do this silently or write it down in literal love letter to yourself. Simply let yourself know, Hey, you did that thing. I saw it all. And you are amazing. In line with this, in the book A New Earth, Eckhart Tolle suggests that whatever we are missing or wanting in our life – give it to others. Give without without expectation, attachment or obligation. That this has the power...

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Being Present + Vulnerability = Ownership and Turning Fear Into Excitement (Day5) #25DaysOfPresence

Today I put another notch in my Daring to Suck belt. I was asked to audition for a deodorant commercial. LOL. Yes, random and fun as I’m always thrilled to actually practice my own mantra in real life. And also.. why the HELL not. *Video to follow tomorrow describing presence in action.* I do however, have this quick #FunnyFriday video about the awkward call I made to a local radio station on my way home -enjoy! The audition application came by the way of a delightful email from a friend who saw the post, thought of me and passed it along. The casting agent was looking for Moms who run their own business or have “unexpected” professions. LOL. I guess thats me – so I threw my hat in the ring (a few pics and my bio) and they called me yesterday to see if I could auction TODAY… oh and make a 2 min video of my home, office and kids whilst juggling the mini-men through the dinner, bath & bedtime chaos. Sure, no problem (Read Day 4’s post about grace and recovery here.) Walking into the audition, I became acutely aware that I was consciously stepping into the lions den of image, appearance and critique. A real “high school” vibe of wanting to be picked was in the air. Yes, I did get a little hooked, however the recovery was enlightening. What I learned is that by being present, I was able to notice the vulnerability, feel the flush of exposure and turning fear (or what I use to perceive as fear) into excitement. I break it down more in the video to come! So in these flushed moments, what’s the BEST question(s) we can slow down and ask ourself as we go? “Why am I doing this? What do I want to get out of this or experience?” This allows us to connect to our why, get grounded, OWN our experience and be honest about how attached we are to the possible outcomes. (old post about this powerful concept here) When we check in and get clear about our why we can discover how the action or our participation is in fact, serving or supporting us. If it feels good and grounded – I say – great, keep going. If it feels like obligation, pleasing others or something else outside of your own hearts wish or desire – this doesn’t make it wrong. Just KNOW why you are doing it. Be clear and take responsibility for being there and doing it. Even just recognizing why means we get to be less surprised when we feel exhausted or a little shitty afterwards. LOL. When we take more responsibility for our choices and decisions we don’t have to feel screwed over or  victimized by others (when really its our own choice to not speak up and ask for a compromise or negotiation). This is about owning your stuff – your choices, your participation in every situation. You might make a different choice next time. And just so you know – I don’t think that by speaking up means you get what you want or your way. It just means you are willing to stand up for the part of you that has a voice, opinion or idea about how it wants things to go. It’s about knowing you tried and although it didn’t go your way, you did speak up and that’s always worth celebrating. We have the opportunity to learn regardless and option to apply the learning to try something different next time knowing just a little bit more....

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How To Survive, Navigate and Master Difficult Emotions: 10 Ways To Gain Control When They Take You Out!

      We’ve all been there. LIFE happens and we are taken out at the knees. Drowning in a sea of hurt feelings, confusion, loss of control, sadness or grief – to name a few. Without awareness or tools, we can swirl in turbulence for longer than we need to, feeling frustrated with no resolution, no clarity and feeling like we are going around in circles. In sharing my own experiences of emotional tidal waves,  I also offer Ten Empowering Lessons and Insights  to gain new perspective and understanding in how we can use our emotions as powerful opportunities for learning, personal growth and freedom. People often ask me “How are you so comfortable expressing your emotions?” (or why is it so easy for me) and the truth is it is NEVER easy. The one things I have that they may not is a faith that feeling my emotions is worth it. I, like many people, use to see emotions as inconvenient, unpredictable, messy, weak-looking and hurtful. I would avoid the ‘bad’ ones at any cost. Now, however, I know my emotions serve to free me in my life. Through full expression and release. Emotions show up to facilitate deep healing if I allow them too. Sound simple? It is. And it’s the hardest, most rewarding work we will ever do in this life. The Time Life (and Death) Took Me Out In the spring of 2008 and newly married, my husband and I learned we were expecting our first baby. Me, being a mother and nurturer to friends and family my whole life, was caught off guard by how scared I was at learning the news. I remember seeing the positive pee test sitting on the ledge of the tub, knees up to my chest, staring shellshocked at the dripping tap. The water cold and feeling like I was having an out of body experience watching my husband burst into joyful tears and laughter at the news. He was me. And I was… terrified and baffled at my response. Why am I so confused, I wondered. Where was the immediate joy? The happiness? As time went on with some education about my new experience and patient support, I slowly began to relax into motherhood and eventually embraced it to the point of finally feeling excitement and wanting to plan. We waited the standard “safe zone” of 3 months and told our friends and family which was a celebration I will never forget. This was where the joy was! I was elated and ready for all of it. The following morning I woke up to cramps, bleeding and realized I was miscarrying. I struggle to articulate the physical and emotional chaos that transpired over the hours and days that followed.  However, a flash of words and scenes play out in my mind… rug pulled out from under, a kick in the stomach, complete terror at what I was experiencing, raw survival, cruel awareness, bitter confusion, anger,  answerless questions, the intimacy of shared pain and unpredictable tears that felt they would never end. I lost total control — of my body, emotions, mind and my spirit. Up was down. Left was right. Woven within this chaos, a thread existed that I clung to. It suggested in whispers that I would survive and could get through this… eventually. On one particularly angry day, I called a friend who allowed me to share the conflicting emotions I was struggling with – one day feeling strong and ‘okay’ and the...

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An Unexpected Love Song for 2014

I wanted to title this post “Some lessons don’t land the first (or tenth time) around” but who knew that my lack of self care over the holidays would result in me discovering my anthem (and love song) for 2014. The past month had me completely sucked into the cliché of holiday chaos. On several moments I heard myself saying “I’d like to slow down and just take a moment to breathe” or in other words, practicing what I preach. Self love, self care, self anything! But did I? Not really. Whenever I tried to ‘check in’ with me, I felt this sense of anxiousness and frustrated that my peace wasn’t coming fast enough so I didn’t want to stay too long in those quiet places to let whatever was in me come up and out (feelings, thoughts, writing) – so, I rushed myself to just get back to real life and get through it. You’d think I’d see the signs to stop and pay attention but apparently I thought I had it handled. Nope. The price I paid was my peace, feeling ungrounded and not experiencing my life however it was showing up.  My husband (God love him) paid the price of having to watch me melt down a few days before Christmas and then after when the feelings were still lingering, instead of just being with my ‘stuff’ and giving it some time to figure it out, I chose to ignore, get my head down and keep going. What resulted was I felt edgy, more emotional, reactive and definitely less grateful and loving.  As much as I ‘tried’, I struggled to feel present and found myself doing my way through it all because it felt easier (aka more comfortable). By the grace of all things holy, there were ‘peak-a-boo’ moments where I witnessed the magic in my kids faces as they lit up, felt the love exchanged between me and those around me, but before I knew it, the decorations were down and the New Year has come and gone.  Like I said, some lessons take a few times around until they stick. After a very late night ringing in the New Year with our kids, I woke up today from a much needed nap with the John Legend song All of Me playing in my head with a thought that I couldn’t shake and had to write down – It’s how we’re in relationship with our self that creates our reality (our happiness, suffering, joy etc). I pulled this song up on YouTube, listening with this message in mind and the tears fell hard and fast.  In this moment, I found my new perspective and platform for 2014. That it all begins within and to LOVE ME– NO MATTER WHAT. I say these words to my husband and boys all the time but what if I said it to myself and really meant it? What would it be like to love all my “curves and edges” and my “perfect imperfections”, my crazy emotions and thoughts – and to stick by me when things get uncomfortable, be loving and have my back even when I’m acting or feeling like an jerk? What happens when I give my all, to me? “You are my end and my beginning, even when I lose I’m winning.” More tears. This is a song about unconditional love and I’m claiming it for...

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